While reading a fb post from hopeful parents (love that org btw), I realized something about myself. I find it incredibly profound and moving when this happens, and it has been happening quite often lately. As I was growing up I was accused of "always doing it the hard way", my epiphany was that growing up in that fashion of always pushing the limits and never settling for what someone said "just because they said so" prepared me for this awesome journey with Ethan. If I would have never tried to loom at things differently with an open mind I would never have the strength and gumption to fight to heal Ethan.
I have always had guilt over people saying things about me- I truly take it to heart. It was really gratifying today to remember that the things that make me the person that i am are tools that were given to me in order to handle and challenge my life.
It feels good to be proud of who I am - the good, the bad and the determined ( or controlling as people have told me all my life in a derogatory manner).
I'll take it because those traits and gifts have enabled me to scour books, research articles, attend conferences, participate in support groups and online chat rooms to find the best tools for my son.
And today, he is one step closer to being healed!!! Yippee!!
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