where was I?

Well, Ethan seems to be alright for the moment? I have looked everywhere for the mattress pieces that he just ate? That is the first time that he has done that~ I hope he isn't developing PICA...

I was going to write about Ethan's beginning to now-- to help explain things, but now I have realized that this blog is primarily to serve me and anyone else that is searching for answers pn Pervasive Developmental Disorder-None Other Specified aka PDD-NOS aka Autism Spectrum Disorder aka Ethan locked in a world that he can't tell anyone about that must understandably be driving him crazy.

I guess that is how I am feeling today~he must be going crazy. That is the only explanation that I can find for his behavior. The behavior is the hardest part of this nightmare. He can't stop doing these mean things, even though he knows they are wrong, I can't stop getting extremely mad at him for repeatedly doing them and short of jumping on a trampoline or some other hard core exercise 24/7 it will never get better.

Ok - the trains and dolls are no longer interesting them. Off to play for a few hours. Thanks for the partial talk. That is about all I get out these days, half of a complete thought. :)

My first entry

So... I finally got something set up. I have been thinking about doing this for many many months. I have found over the years (actually since I was a teenager), that when I write things out or talk them through then they become more clear.

This site I am going to reserve for myself and a very few close friends and family to share with on occasion. I am hoping that this will be a way to communicate what is happening with Ethan and with our family's journey to healing Ethan...

so, here it goes... where it all started!

Ethan was born 6/1/06 at 7 lbs 11 oz and 21 1/2 inches. I now know that his birth was not a typical way to enter this world. I know now that I should have put more thought into inducing my labor with him. He wasn't ready to come into this world, and he doesn't do anything that he doesn't really want to with ease!!!

I put together a synopsis of Ethan last year, and I am just going to copy it here for those of you that are interested. I have relived it so many times...

Well, I guess you can't paste into this. Ethan just took 20 bites out of the 3 inch mattress pad and evidently ate them all~so I must go. THat poop should be fun. :)